I’m getting myself adjusted to being a Mommy – I don’t want to “change” who I am just “adjust.” Ava is my whole life. She means more to me than anything. But I am also a wife, a daughter and a teacher and a friend. I need to keep my life balanced. There’s one thing I learned after going back to work was that sometimes I need “me time.” My husband has been amazing with allowing me the “me time.” So sometimes I just like to go shopping or run errands by myself. I’ve gone out with the girls a lot, yesterday we spent the day at a co-workers pool. I know my life will never be the same but it’s important to do things for you! (Daddy too!)
Breast feeding: I was doing great! I pumped at wake up, at work 2x a day and before bed. I was making enough to freeze and had a great stash going. We fed Ava a bottle of formula at night. Ava stopped nursing once I went back to work 😦 . I was going to stop for back to school anyway but I kept getting lumps at the end of July from not clearing out enough. I couldn’t do it any longer. I weaned myself off the pump in about 2 weeks. Ava has been on partial breast milk and formula for another month up until this week when my frozen stash ran out.
Baby #2: Since having Ava (it took 3-4 months) my husband is finally on board with having more kids. Coming from the man who said he could probably do without them. He loves Ava so much and we talk a lot of having more. We have discussed it and we will go back to the specialist in Feb. try IVF again in April or May. He does not like to talk about it in detail and I think he is dreading the process again but the idea of having more Ava’s running around is so enticing. But he will go along with just about anything for me. I’m sad, our doctor left the practice so we will have to choose a new one but I have high hopes it will work again with a fresh ivf cycle (I honestly can’t remember if I have any frozen embryos, if I do it was only one). I would have loved to give it a try this month to have a baby in the spring but our insurance won’t cover another round until 1 year after a successful live birth. 😦
Weight loss: I gained a whopping 48lbs I am down 40 pounds since having Ava – only 8 more to go (I’ve been stuck at 8 more lbs all summer haha) But with two weeks left, I’m back on the weight loss wagon. Mostly just counting calories and watching what I eat. Trying to walk with Ava at least once a day. I don’t want to drop fast, the slower I do it the more likely I am to keep it off. I’d like to be pre pregnancy weight by Oct or Nov.